Just Another Creek Day

 Is there really anything better than walking a creek and listening to the sounds around you?  Love these days with him. I will cherish all these years of just him for the rest of my life.

Enjoying Our Mornings

It sure is fun to enjoy our mornings again and not have to rush out of the house. We are going to have many of these mornings together for awhile and I am excited and nervous. I hope I can be the best environment for him while we are home together. He will be going to preschool three mornings a week but then he will be home with us and I hope I can separate my baby world for his world and what he needs. I am very nervous about it. I know people do it all the time and he seems to be excited about it, but it is pressure. Prayers that god will help me balance what they both need.

First Day of Summer Break

First day of summer and we are back enjoying it at our favorite place. Picnic at the creek and playing in the COLD water. :) Dirty face, filthy hands, filthy feet means it was a good day together. This year's summer will be much different than the last. It's just us and not a ton on the agenda. Looking forward to many of these days together.

"Mom Just Give Me a Minute"

Today was a sad day, he has been going to Ms. Shirley's for four years now and today was his last day. He will be going to preschool three days a week next year and staying with mom and baby the rest of the time. He is excited for next year, but it doesn't mean today wasn't a sad one. I am so thankful god put Shirley and Jim in our lives. We have no family around and visitors are do not come all that often. Shirley and Jim have been Ryder's grandparents and have loved him like their own child. On days when he doesn't feel well, Shirley holds him and kisses on him. Shirley has shared her yogurt and cherries breakfast with him daily and laughs about how much yogurt he can eat. To find someone to watch your child that genuinely loves them is not an easy task and we hit the jackpot. We will stop by to see them for sure, but for today when he can't quite understand the year ahead there were tears shed by all.

Paleontologist

He is very excited to be a paleontologist when he grows up. He tells us all about his travels with his team and what kinds of dinosaurs he is going to be looking for. He talks about living with his team and even studying at night about tomorrow's dig. One night he even said, "I hope my team gets a long and is not really messy" haha! He tells Jarin and I that he will probably have to travel far away to follow the dinosaur maps so we have to be ready when he is not here. I entertain his conversation and tell him that we don't mind, we will visit often and he can show us all of his finds.

Last night I walked into his room when he was calling me and he said, "mom please, I need a big squeeze hug" and I walked over hugged him and he started sobbing. Uncontrollable sad sobbing, if you are a parent you know it is the kind that makes your heart hurt. I asked him what was wrong and he looked at me and said "I will miss you so much when I am a paleontologist, how am I going to live so far from you" I wanted to giggle and cry at the same time. I took a deep breath and said, "Ryder I will follow your dreams anywhere". He asked if I could live with him and his team and I told him that was too many people to do laundry for as I laughed. He assured me that they would do their own laundry. haha. I explained that as he gets older he will want his own house but I would be happy to live next door to him forever ;)) He then told me he was going to find the biggest t-rex ever and he would buy all of his aunts a house on the same street. I said that was a deal as long as I had the biggest house out everyone. ;) haha!

Getting Ready For Baby

 He wanted to help with his baby sister's room. He actually did a good job too. :) I may have a large gap between my two children but I will tell you what, it is pretty darn fun having him be so active in this whole process and understand it. He does help and enjoys the excitement of whats to come. For those of you who know me, no her room is not going to be pink. Haha! I know you understand the anxiety this would bring. :)) Small touch of pink when it is all done.

Love Him

We are entering new territory over the next year together. This four year old and I have been best friends for awhile now and we know how exactly each other works and when we need our own time to breathe. I am so excited to introduce a sibling to him but nervous to lose a piece of our friendship together. I am SO very thankful for these last four years and would not do anything differently if I could. Time getting to know this child has irreplaceable. Our bond together will hopefully be one that carries on for a lifetime. He is my boy, my heart, has been my reason for trying to be the best me over the last four and a half years.

Water Balloons

We had our first adventure with water balloons today. He thought they were a lot of fun. I literally tried to throw 10 at him and get him wet but all of them bounced right off and popped on the ground. Either I am really not good at water balloon fights or these water balloons were not quite up to par. :)