Newborn Goodness

All The Little Details

That cute little upper lip that goes up. 

The way you like to suck on your lower lip. 

The way your cheeks are so big it creates a crease around your mouth. 

Your insanely long nail beds. 

Your hairy little ears. 

Your long thin eyelashes. 

The way your feet still go together like you are smooshed inside my belly still. 

The roundness of your cute little nose. 

Your dark black hair. 

Your dark dark eyes. 

You are so beautiful little girl and I know change is inevitable. I only hope to look back at these pictures and still see pieces of the new you in them and can recall all these details forever.

Just.Like.That.

Earlier this month I posted this maternity picture. Hard to believe she is here {oh my gosh, hallelujah to not being pregnant anymore} and in our arms. I love when Ryder says to me, "mom I didn't know she would be this cute when she was in your belly".

Legos

This little guy has been a champ. Thankful today for my introverted little dude who just loves to get lost in his toys. Life has been a  little crazy lately with adjusting to our new life of four. He plays and is happy and content no matter what we are doing.

1 Week Old

1 Week

And just like that she has been with us for a week. Evie Gray you have made our world brighter. I thank god for this little blessing daily, she is perfect, she is mine. There is really no better feeling than when you have a child join your family and you know they are yours to love on forever. <3

Brownie Love

When you realize your four year old has never had a brownie before and you decide you need to make some. I let him lick the spoon and his response was, "mom, I am digging in on these they are "alicious"". Brownies were a hit to say the least!

Major Blessings

I sit here and think what a difference a year makes. Last year at this time my family was stuck in a tiny hospital room surrounding my father in his last weeks with us. It was the hardest time in my life. Here I sit almost exactly one year later, with this healthy little girl. Life is just so so strange sometimes, it is hard to comprehend what lays ahead and only god knows our future. It makes me both nervous for the journey ahead and hopeful that sometimes you just have to trust the bigger plan. I vow to sit each day and think about all that surrounds me and how thankful I am for all that I have been given, I will miss the people who are not here to experience it with me but know they are all part of the journey and I see them daily in my children. 

Birth Story

Evie Gray Kratzberg
9lbs / 2 oz
Born at 12:21 am August 10th, 2016


Little miss was a week overdue and in the wrong spot, I had been having strong contractions since my kidney surgery in June. However nothing was progressing due to her positioning and not wanting to come down. There were no signs of me ever going into labor so we scheduled an induction. I was so nervous about this because Ryder's birth was so horribly painful and so very long, my OB already warned me that this one would definitely have the potential to be worse. To say I was terrified or thought I was not strong enough would be an understatement. The induction process started at 7:30 on Tuesday, August 9th. I was nowhere near thinned out, so we had to start at the beginning. It didn't take long for the contractions to jump up a step. Four hours later they checked me and I was still a 1. I felt defeated, why was this not moving along? They started a heavy pitocin drip then and turned it up about every 15-20 minutes. I do have to say you are in a better place with a second child and knowing how to focus and get through each one. Checked me about 3 hours later and I was a 3.5!!! It was music to my ears, I was progressing maybe just maybe this wouldn't end in a section. For the record I am not opposed to drugs. My husband works in the medical medicine field and there are many amazing things out there. More power to mamas who do it on their own (you are literally superwoman) but I am ok with taking the less than warrior route. I say bring on anything that can add some comfort to this process. {insert wide eyes and no freaking way expression to natural childbirth}. About an hour later my wonderful nurse came in and said we have a situation with our anesthesiologist. We have two sets of twins getting ready to go into surgery and if you are getting an epidural you should probably do it now because it could be hours. Well okay then {insert me thinking yessssss on the fact that it wasn't me having twins and I get an early epidural this time} I will start it now. So after the epidural which was amazing this time, never lost feeling anywhere other than the lessoning of the contractions, my legs were fully functional the whole time. After the epidural they broke my water and before I knew it I was at a 6. I knew I should be sleeping -- but between the nausea and the body shakes I couldn't. As I kept moving up in numbers I was getting worried for the pushing. Ryder took 4 hours of hard pushing and got stuck in my pelvic bone. It continued to hang over my head. At about 11 o'clock that night I started getting the intense pressure and called for the nurse. She came and checked me and I was a 8.5. This was real. It was going to happen whether I liked it or not. My awesome nurse assured me we were going to do this the right way and continue to breathe as I "labored down". I could feel her sliding down with each contraction. The nurse went to feel her and and felt her eyes towards the back which also meant my sunny side up little girl turned around on her way down. :) 21 minutes later and about 10 pushes later my little girl was out and on my chest. She took a minute to cry but when she did she was loud and proud. I calmed her with my voice while she was on my chest. She was perfect --- she was Ryder. Her lips, her mouth, her cheeks were all Ryder. Jarin actually yelled, "oh my gosh it's Ryder when she was coming out". So thankful for this birth, it was simple, quiet, and perfect. It was an experience unlike last time, there was nothing traumatic about it.

Getting Taller

We are a little obsessed with getting taller. He comes out every morning in his jams and walks up to the table and sees how much he can see on top of the table. The last two weeks he has been able to see everything on the table and lists it off to me and is so excited that he is "getting so tall". In fact a family friend told him he looked taller the other day and you would have thought he saw Santa. He ran up to the table and told him to look how tall he is. :)

Dino Audience

Because how else would you watch TV with friends.

Robot Cleaning

We have had this thing for years and when it comes out he is still fascinated by it. Today while the Roomba was cleaning the kitchen he plopped a squat and watched it and was telling it where it missed a spot. Then when it would grab it he would make a fist and say "yessss". We are obviously the most exciting bunch of people in the area. {insert wide eyed emoji}

Handsome

Puppy Love

Hunter was pretty darn sad when we lost Berkley so we ended up getting another dog after I swore I would only have one from now on. Well it turns out the dog was for someone else. These two are so cute together. They wrestle together, run around and chase each other, lay on each other, and just love to be around each other. So much fun watching them grow together, I have a feeling this will be a friendship that continue to grow strong throughout the years.