Today was a hard day, it may have been full of candy and fun times but I will not act like it wasn't hard for me. My dad comes for Easter, he has been here every year. We don't have family here for holidays it is just one of the drawbacks of being the only one who lives far away from others. So to celebrate Easter with my dad here was one of my favorite times of the year. I had a pit in my stomach when the Easter stuff came out in the stores. Dad would always show up at our house with a GIANT basket of some sort, filled with so much stuff for Ryder and me it was ridiculous. This year... it was lonely. Too quiet, too much of the three of us. There should have been a fourth person here and it was very apparent. Last year I made dad leave early and told him he wasn't allowed to stay for Easter. He was in so much pain and couldn't even do normal daily things. Something was wrong and we both knew it. His choice was to stay here and go to the VA I found here or go home and see someone. He did decide to leave, had I known it would have been the last time he would have been at my house I would have hugged him a little longer. I would have given him an Easter basket full of things we loved about him. I know he was with us here in spirit and Ryder had a great day, but i'm not sure this holiday will ever get any easier.
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