Monday, May 15, 2017

9 Months


Happy 9 months Miss Gray. This month has been a productive one. You are pulling yourself up on everything. You say "hi" and "dada" and give me kisses when I ask for them. I can't believe how fast you are growing. You love playing with your big brother and I am so very thankful he is patient with you. You are so very happy and up for anything. My favorite thing this month is when I pick you up and you lay your head down on my shoulder and sigh. I am so very thankful for the past 9 months with you at home. Watching you grow has been so fun. Love you to the moon sweet girl.

My Babies

Gosh dang I love this life I live. SO grateful for all the love I am given by these two. Had an amazing day hiking at my favorite place here and enjoyed some much needed outdoors and small adventuring.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Mother's Day


All I wanted for Mother's Day was a picture of the four of us drawn by Ryder. I woke up to this adorable picture and it couldn't be more perfect. I am so very blessed to have these two sweeties call me mom. Love this life I live. Happy Mother's Day out there.

Friday, May 12, 2017

Trouble

This is her my mom just told me no because I am trying to climb out of the tub and I don't know if I should cry or smile at her face.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Sunlight & Babies

It has rained and rained and rained here. Don't get me wrong if you know me, you know I hibernate and I love it. But to see this sunlight come through the windows feels amazing. Miss Gray found her spot in the light and she has been playing there also.

Friday, May 5, 2017

Best Friends

Grandma got her a new little bunny doll for Easter and she loves her. She carries her with her and snuggles her soft face. She has a new best friend and I don't hate this cuteness. :)

After Bath Giggles



She is such a ham. It is fun to see the differences between her and Ryder as babies. She is adventurous and over eager. She will giggle when she senses what is coming. She loves to be in the middle of it all and can be fearless but cautious at the same time.

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Bubbles


I am not sure but I think sleeping babies and bath time babies are the just about the cutest forms of babies. :) This little peanut is so dang cute when she is naked and wet and splashing. Bath time usually consists of 87 towels on the floor because girlfriend is constantly kicking all the water out like it is her job. She would spend hours in the tub just looking around and splashing.

Quiet Time

He is so amazing with his little sister, but that quiet time after she goes to bed is very much needed.

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Walking For You Dad

Words can't even express how much you are missed. We always talk about how when we stop to look at a picture of you it's like we have to remind ourselves you are not here. It takes a few moments of telling yourself you can't pick up the phone, I can't hug you, I can't hear your deep raspy voice again, you will never call me sweetie again, I can't see your half smile ever again. Even typing this I have to remind myself that you aren't here any longer. This race has become a part of us and during those horrible five and a half months while we sat by your side, held your hand, fought with you, and cried with you we also felt helpless and out of control with truly understanding there was nothing we could do for you. This race helps us feel like we are still fighting, we aren't useless. I wish we could have helped you.  We have made the choice to turn that anger and sadness into something thats worthwhile and something that will help others with this diagnosis. Love you dad, miss our coffee talks, miss your hugs, miss your chuckle, miss your random check ins with us, miss your surprise show ups, miss your love for my child, miss your stubbornness, miss your hiya sweetie, miss.your.love. I am sorry we couldn't take your journey farther. It's not fair. We are walking for you, we are walking for us, we are walking for others, we are walking to prove that we will not forget you and how damn hard you fought. We love you dad.

Monday, April 24, 2017

Sweet Girl

Oh my gosh sweet girl. You just radiate beauty and happiness. I hope as you grow your confidence in life and happiness to try new things is just a part of you. You are perfection.

Friday, April 21, 2017

Lemonade & Keychains

In 2015 I lost my dad to Pancreatic cancer. It was a horrible thing to watch and we miss him daily. We walk yearly and fundraise to raise money to give to the Pancreatic Cancer Action Network. This year Ryder was responsible for 10 dollars to do his part in the raise. We discussed ideas on what he could do to raise money and he came up with the idea to sell some of his Perler bead keychains that he makes. He worked for hours on it and created so many. We set up a stand and lots of friends came. Lots of family and friends donated through out website and over all he raised 554 dollars on his own to put towards this cause. I am so very proud of him and his huge heart. We miss our papaw and him and ryder were kindred spirits, they understood each other and I am so thankful for the time they had together. I will forever miss watching the the bond between the two of them. #walkingfordave




Thursday, April 20, 2017

Endangered Species

The entire car ride home from the zoo he made aunt Kate look up animals on the endangered species list. he added them to the list of animals he would have at his zoo when he gets older. He came up with the idea that he could breed them there, then raise the babies and transition the entire family back into living in the wild. "Mom I could do that with enough animals that they would not need to be on the list anymore" His love for animals is something fierce - in fact lately he seems to bean animal more than he seems to be Ryder, but his heart is huge and it is so fun to watch his intense fascinations. 

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Mornings Together

I know there is a five year gap between the two of them, but this is a sight that I see often. They play together and he is so good and patient with her. When I ask him if he wants me to take her a lot of times he answers with "it's okay mom, we are playing together". He plays like she is Godzilla and wrecks lots of things. It warms my mama heart to see them together and see how well they play. I was always worried about the gap and wondered if I waited to long. Don't get me wrong, we did what was right for us and our family. My five years with him were magic. He is the kind of kid that thrived with the one-on-one from us. It is just when I got pregnant with her, I wondered if we waited too long for this. Numbers do not matter. Love matters. They love each other and seeing how well they interact and love each other is all I need to calm my worries.

Hi Mom


This month we are are slowly starting to wave hi. It is so hard to catch her doing it and sometimes she will give a quick "hi" when she does it. She loves to do it when daddy gets home from work.

Sunday, April 16, 2017

Happy Easter

Happy Easter. So very thankful for His continual grace and all that I have been blessed with in this life I am living.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Watching the Geese Go By

Our new house is a little slice of heaven. Our lot is not big -- but our view is huge. We have a small creek that flows through. There are geese, there are frogs, there are ducks, there are blue herons. It is amazing. Tonight while he was playing he saw a goose fight in the water and I hear him yelling, "Get him!! Get him!! A real wildlife adventure right here, awesome!! This should be on Wild Kratts" He was so excited and screaming at the top of his lungs. I was giggling. As we were wrapping up the night he was sitting and waiting for something exciting to happen.

8 Months

Happy 8 Miss Gray. You continue to talk up a storm, you love to say "dada" when mom tells you to say "mama". You think that's hilarious. You finally love the pink, moms hard work paid off. You are now bashful and snuggle into mom and dad when people talk to you. (I don't hate it) You love to play with anything and everything that are not your toys. You are crawling everywhere, you are constantly at my feet. You are trying to pull yourself up and you have two sweet little bottom teeth in that mouth. We finally figured out why you hated baby food and refused it... you simply were trying to tell us you wanted big girl food. I have no clue where you put all the food you eat. You are happy, you are beautiful, and it's a better place since you came along. Love you to the moon sweet girl.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Kindergarten Round-Up

Kindergarten Round-Up tonight for this little man. He was born an anxious and nervous soul. It takes a lot to talk him into doing things outside of the norm. He did it tonight though. He made the deciiosu to go, and he stuck with it. sure there may have been a hippo in his pocket for protection and bravery -- but I am so very proud of him for following through and not taking the easy road. I also can't believe he is going to be in kindergarten. It's mind blowing that we are at this stage. We were walking out and I introduced him to an incoming student from a former family. She smiled really big at him and said, "Ryder, I have a feeling we are going to be great friends". If that doesn't sound like the beginning of a love story... <3

Saturday, April 8, 2017

New Beginnings Aren't Always Easy

Tonight we had our first tragedy in our new home. Almost five years ago my dad bought Ryder one of those silly little frogs you see at the mall. This little frog was a beast. We tried to pair him up with two different frogs which in fact he deemed alpha. To be honest I was not super careful with this frog -- tank changes were fast and not too scientific. I am shocked he lived as long as he did. Unfortunately the move was just too much for the little frog. Telling Ryder was heartbreaking. He cried and cried. He said he wanted to throw him into the creek behind our home so that a fish could eat him and the circle of life could continue. Leave it to my little animal lover to want to feed another animal with his loss. So here he is with daddy throwing Mr. Frog in. Just a silly little frog that drove me nuts when I had to clean that tank, but it broke my heart to see him sad about it.

Friday, April 7, 2017

Sweet Girl

Just a little morning reading with some friends.

Giggles & Games

I was unpacking boxes and I heard a lot of giggling coming from Ryder's room. Evie started with me and I guess made her way to the more exciting room. I peeked in and saw them all playing Jenga. Needless to say -- Evie was not winning. The room is a disaster but so very thankful for the memories that are already being made in our new home. <3

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Muffins With Mom

It is one of the last mornings in our home that I brought two babies home to. Ryder and I made muffins together (his absolute favorite) and we took a minute to eat them together and enjoy our time here. I love this memory, and I will miss this giant kitchen where we ate breakfast together and Ryder sat on the counters as I cooked. This home helped me be a better mother. It taught me to enjoy those moments in each room. It taught me to let my kids grow creatively and paint does in fact come off shiny wood floors quite well. It taught me that tiny little sticky handprints on my walls were in fact adorable. It taught me that shoes on really isn't that big of a deal, it simply means more grip as he sprints down the hall so he won't fall. It taught me that big drawers were awesome for sippy cups and teaching you how to unload the dishwasher. It taught me that the steps were short from our room to your room in the middle of the night and that would come in very handy. It taught me that crown molding and window ledges were awesome mountains for dinosaurs and animals. It taught me that when you all live on one floor together there was going to be a lot of toys ... everywhere... and that's okay. These walls were good to us. We are leaving behind a beautiful house, but the people that make the home and the memories are moving on to their next big perfect adventure. Excited to see what I will learn next.

Monday, March 27, 2017

Working Hard

So very thankful for all these nice days so little man can play outside while I get this house ready and pack up the last of our things. <3 Love you Ryder and love that your imagination is so very huge and you are capable of playing inside 'your world' for hours. I hope you hold on to this forever, you are my child and I love being alone and enjoying the quiet just like you.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Surrounded By Goodness

Surrounded by trees in all directions while one baby is sleeping on my chest and the other is telling me wild animals stories. My kind of Saturday.

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Hide & Seek

We are at the phase where you literally have to search for them when you return to a room. I wonder how they get themselves in the spots that they do so quickly!

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

A Girl & Her Bunnies

We have oodles of light up toys, toys that roll, toys that make obnoxious noises but all she ever wants to play with are her bunnies and her brother's toys.

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

{Story} -- Your Heart Is Gold

I want to start inserting stories into this -- things that may not have a picture but need to be told so I can look back on them later. Today we were at Toys-R-Us. Miss Evie continually sits up and slams her head on the side of the crib in the middle of the night, so this sleep deprived mama was going to try a breathable bumper. I had one in mind so I wanted to see if they had one. I found one similar to the one I was looking for. I picked it up and said, "jeez Ryder seventy bucks, I don't know if I want to pay that for this" I was just kind of talking to myself and didn't even really think he was listening. He wanted to go look at his toys so I decided to just put it in the cart and wait on a decision. He asked me if I was getting it. I said, "I'm not sure bud it's very expensive and I don't really want to pay that much for this -- it's not a very fun thing". I told him I would think about it. We went and looked at toys and I gave him his time to sit and look at the things he wanted to check out. We were getting ready to leave and I said -- "ok buddy let's go back, I am going to go and put this away". I walked over to the aisle and he said, "Mom, does Evie need that"? I told him not really, I was just wondering if it would help her sleep. He looked at me and said, "Mom you can take the money out of my piggy bank for her to have it, I will buy it for her". My mama heart about broke in two. I instantly got on my knees and hugged him and told him that was the sweetest thing ever and he is a good big brother. I also informed him I could infect afford the bumper I just wasn't sure it would even do anything to help. Love this kid's giant heart. You are made of gold little man. 

Friday, March 10, 2017

7 Months


Happy seven months baby girl. You are sitting like a champ and so close to crawling. you are still so very loud, and can drive your brother crazy with your happy yelling. You are still not crazy about baby food, and sleep is slowly (kinda--maybe--sorta) getting better. You love your daddy, the dogs, and dancing. You have a wild heart and make us laugh continually. The world is a better place since you came along. <3

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

New Beginnings

I'm so going to miss this spot when we move. We always have so much fun just sitting up there and talking and feeling the sunlight on cold days. It's our reading corner, it's the place where my favorite newborn picture with Ryder was taken. Some days it's a dragon ship, a diving board, a nap space. If you open the lid it's my saving grace to about eight million stuffed animals. #whereamigoingtoputthemall Such a simple detail but so many of the memories were made here. Wondering where "our spot" will be in our next home.

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Hello Gorgeous.

Little girl you are gorgeous. My hope for you is you always know you are good enough and you are beautiful inside and out.

Learning All About You

On Saturday I had the opportunity to go on a day date with this little guy to Wild Kratts. It was in KY so we had a bit of a drive. I wanted the day to stick out for him so I decided to come prepared with some questions to ask him on the drive to get us talking about different things. He was so cute because he would turn and ask me questions in moments of silence as well. <3 Here are a few of the questions that his answers were my favorite--
1. If you could have any super power what would you have? I would shoot lightning out of my finger tips.
2. If you could do any job in the world what would you do? I would be an animal protector.
3. If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, morning, lunch, dinner what would it be? Pancakes.
4. If you could travel anywhere in the world where would you travel? To the African Savannah.
5. What is your favorite color? Orange.
6. What is the one thing you wish you didn't have to do again? Sleep.
7. If you had a million dollars what would you go buy? A Lego Guy
8. What makes you happy? Playing
9. What makes you sad? When my mom is sad ------ Why does your mom get sad? Cause Papaw is gone.
10. What is the coolest thing about Ryder? I am really good at playing and I am nice.

Love this little boy. He is such a cool kid. So thankful he is mine.

Monday, February 20, 2017

Stubborn

She is so stinking beautiful but she is stubborn. I think we will have our hands full. She knows exactly how to work situations to her favor and yells at you when it is something she feels strongly about. She can be in full on melt down mode and I can look at her and tell her "we aren't doing this" and she miraculously turns it off. Testing limits at six months has to mean we are in for it... right???

Sunday, February 19, 2017

{story} -- Sweet Boy

Today we went to Wild Kratts. He was so excited, heck to be honest I was excited. The car ride was fun, the show was fun, he thanked me multiple times for taking him. He knew it was a privilege and he was very grateful. After the show we were in line to pick up a souvenir. Next to us in line was a little girl in a wheel chair. He was kind of staring at her and as most moms do I started to get a little nervous about if he was going to say something that could come off as insensitive. His staring got a little more intense and he started to move towards her. There was not much I could do at this point. I just took a deep breath and trusted him. He walked over to her and asked her about the cool thing she had in her hand that held her Creature Power Chips. I sighed relief. It was me. I was the one that was noticing the differences and I was ashamed. They talked about her little holder, and she opened it to show him. The Creature Power Chips fell out on the floor and before I knew it he was down on the floor picking them up for her and said "I will get them for you". He picked them all up and handed them to her and we got back in line. I love the simplicity of their little minds. There are no differences, we were there for a common cause and that is all those little kids thought about. I sure wish adults could be more like children, myself included in this. Love you little man, love your heart of gold.

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Wild Kratts

Feeling like super fans today. Drove all the way to Kentucky with this little guy to see his favorite television duo Chris & Martin. Such a fun day. He was completely star struck. When they came out he giggled uncontrollably and said "it is really them in real life". He was yelling at the stage when they asked questions and telling them the names of different things. What a fun day and what a fun thing to watch. <3

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Beautiful Baby

This girl. She is just too much. Her giggles, her smiles, her eyes that seem to suck me in. I love you baby girl and am so thankful you are in our lives.

Monday, February 13, 2017

Toes Toes Toes

You little girl are obsessed with your toes, you eat them, you pull at them, you look at them, you constantly have to be touching them. Socks don't really matter, but you love it when I pull them off. What is it about those chunky little feet that you love so much?

Friday, February 10, 2017

This Picture

This picture sums her up. She is like a little puppy. Always so excited to see you, it literally goes down to her toes and she kicks her legs and can't contain her excitement. She sure makes it fun to say hello to. :))

Half A Year

How is it even possible that I have a 6 month old little girl. I still remember sitting in the ultrasound hearing, "it's definitely a girl" and Ryder yelling "I knew it was a girl". You are my sweet sweet little girl and I can't believe how many smiles you add to my day. I love to kiss your sweet little cheeks and neck and make you giggle. You love to watch people dance and be silly. You kick your legs like you are a marathon swimmer. You love bath time and we literally can't keep your toes out of your mouth. You are moving around the entire room and getting yourself up on all fours, it won't be long until you are crawling all over the place. Little girl, you light up my whole world. I can't believe how big you are getting.

Friday, February 3, 2017

Smile

I just love this girl's huge smile. I know teeth are around the corner so I am enjoying this gummy smile while I can.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Staying At Home

This year has been jammies all day, jumping on beds, and enjoying each other's company. It has been wonderful. <3 Cherishing the time I have left because it is going way to quickly.

Reenactments

Everything is a story at our house. Everything can be reenacted, everything is an adventure. We love Wild Kratzz and this little dude loves to act it out. He has the entire shows characters and builds awesome vehicles and environments for Chris and Martin to go "creature adventuring. This child of mine could play for three weeks straight, never leave the house, and never run out of things to do.

Favorite

She doesn't sleep. Like we are still waking up 6-7 times a night. For some reason I can't seem to produce children who enjoy sleeping. I am so very thankful for this time off with her for two reasons -- I get to spend time with my babies & I get to sip my coffee and open my eyes slowly and let the light flow into the house. Our mornings are beyond slow and I love my husband for taking care of us so I can have these mornings with them.