Field Trip Day {iPhone}

Today was such a fun day. Aunt Kate is here and that means I got to go on a field trip with this little man all by myself. It was so nice to have just the two of us together again and focus on him. I was a little nervous about this one with him being so timid. I knew the horses would be big and it was up to him to overcome his nervous energy. I knew I needed to stand back and out of the way so he didn't latch on to his fear and want to cuddle. He did a great job! He petted the horse, brushed him, and even rode a horse! One horse even bent down and gave him a big kiss. We had a few tears when got up on the horse but they faded quickly and he made himself do it. Grandpa Dave would be proud little man. We talked a lot about grandpa and his love for horses on our way home that day. <3 

Family Love

When you take your own family pictures, you look like a crazy person running back and forth but to see pictures of your own family for once is always an amazing feeling. They are not perfect but they have the ones I love the most in them  Thankful for this family and I know I am extremely blessed.

Hello 7 Weeks

Happy 5th Birthday Sweet Boy

Five years ago this little man made me a mom. It has been the best five years of my life. He is the sweetest five year old I know and loves to put others needs before his own. He tells me I am beautiful, asks me how my day was, and every night when I kiss him good night he tells me I am the sweetest mom he knows (and of course not to let the bed bugs bite). I count my blessings daily that god picked him for me. Love you Ryder, you are one very cool little dude.

All Smiles {iPhone}

This is happening, my little smiley baby girl. She started smiling around 4 weeks and I was trying not to kid myself that they seemed awfully intentional and not gas. :) She would look right at me and smile while I talked. I think it is safe to say they are intentional.

Details

Simply because I am obsessed with these lips and lashes and I know they will change quickly.

Happy One Month Sweet Little Girl

Watchful Eye

He loves her. He loves her a lot. I think he longs for a little of his attention back but he does so wonderful overall with her. I like to let her fuss a bit before I go in there, usually if he hears her for too long he will check  her out and talk to her. Sometimes he walks up to me and says, "umm mom the baby". haha "I know bud"Love these two and can't wait to watch them grow together.

First Day of 4/5 Preschool

This big boy is growing up right before my eyes. This is his last year of preschool before kindergarten and I am in absolute denial over it. He will also be turning 5 this month, it is just a lot to take in. We are so very blessed to be returning to the same wonderful preschool this year. He is excited and ready to go when we talk about it. I however just need a minute to breathe it all in. 

Good Morning Beautiful

Stars Can't Shine Without Darkness

In a year full of some incredibly dark days after losing a loved one, I sit here and am baffled about all that can change in a year. This little girl has given us light. Being face to face with the harsh reality that the road ahead is not promised can be extremely overwhelming at times. I am handing it over to god daily and am focusing on all the good that is right in front of me at this very moment.

Mornings

I am blessed beyond belief that I get to spend these mornings at home. Two kids is much different than one. I don't find myself holding this little one and staring at her for ten hours a day, because I have a four year old who is itching for my attention. As I sit here in the morning drinking my coffee and my lap is full it all hits me that it may be different but it is still incredibly special. I am so thankful we are in a position where I don't have to be thinking about going back to work in the next few weeks. I am thankful for the year ahead and being home with my children. I will never get this time back. Realistically I know there is a possibility of going crazy on certain days, but hopefully these moments will keep me grounded and relaxed and will remind me to accept the crazy days because they also lead to calm sweet moments like these.